Here I am approaching week 10 of the pregnancy.

Things are progressing nicely. I go back to the RE on the 25th, at which time I’ll be 11 weeks. I may be released after that appointment, at which time I’ll attempt to join the maternal fetal medicine group at my local hospital.

I started monitoring my blood pressure today. I located the home monitor I knew we had, but hadn’t used in years. I’m glad to say it was 122/70. Nice and normal. I hope that keeps up for most of the pregnancy!

I have all sorts of things floating through my mind these days. This will be the one and only place where I truly let my thoughts out. The goal is not to offend anyone, so if they want to read it, they can come here to do so.

I’m scared. Of all the health implications for me and these babies. I’m trying not to jump to conclusions and assume I’m going to experience issues. I just know how my body functioned with my first pregnancy and how twins can add to those risks. I guess you could say I’m trying to keep an open mind and be proactive without completely wigging out.

We have told all our family. We have told all our co-workers. And after this next u/s, God-willing that all is okay, we will finally tell Nolan.

I’m not sure how he will react. I’m sure it will mean lots of questions here and there over the next few weeks / months. Furthermore, not only do I get to tell him he’s going to be a big brother someday soon – but I have to figure out how to tell him there are two. I don’t want to leave that part out altogether because I want him to know he can trust us. But I also don’t want to make a huge fuss out of it.

We are nearing the event of selecting our next vehicle. Whether I was pregnant or not, we planned on trading in the Escape this summer, afterall it is six years old. But now we are faced with the need for more seating. I’ve all but given up on the idea of a seven passenger vehicle that has third row seating. I know it would be hard to get Nolan in the backrow if we have two fixated car seats in the second row. So I am thinking practically about a mini-van.

It’s funny when you talk to people they all have opinions on this. I have everything from people telling me I can fit all three in one row (I wish), and others telling me NO on the mini-van. But at the end of the day we’ve got to go with what will work for us.

We’ll take Nolan and his carseat, AND an infant carseat with us when we test-drive. I want to be 110% sure this is what will work for us. Chris is excited to be car shopping, period.

I’m trying to avoid outside pressure and stress from every angle right now. It’s funny how when you tell your families that you’re expecting twins, they all become expert advisors on how to run your life. My own mother wants to constantly help me look for housing. I think that is extremely thoughtful, but I’m already doing the same. And I know she feels this urgency to get it done asap but I don’t. I guess maybe I’m ignorant and don’t know what I’m getting myself into. But I don’t find it to be the end of the world, if we’re still here in our 2br home when these babies come. My mindset is that these two will be sleeping in MY room for awhile. So what does it matter if they have a room yet? We’ll figure it all out when the time is right. I’m looking and keeping eyes open, but not jumping into anything. I’m actually more worried about finding child care. I will need it by March 2010. Time to get on waiting lists. But the problem is I don’t think I can afford TWO at $177 a week a piece when I add in Nolan. It’s crazy. I wish I could find an inhome provider for their first year. But I remember the trap I fell into last time and sure as hell want to avoid that. Call me stingy but I want good, no excellent, care for them. This is by far going to be the money crusher for us.

Physically speaking I am growing, and by that I am referring to my uterus. Not sure how many weeks it’s measuring, but I can tell it’s stretching and growing and I am thankful for elastic right now. I have begun to order a few maternity items – but nothing major yet. I’m utterly disgusted by the lack of maternity clothing in this area and the fact that I’m relegated to order every damn thing I need on the internet. I hate that!

I bought our first case of diapers last weekend. We’ve agreed to stockpile and buy a case every payday. Boy I think they’ve gone up in prices in the past few years!

So there you have it – that is my update. I know I sound like a real Debbie Downer right now. I am not like this every day. Just my moments. I am in complete and total awe of the two precious lives I am carrying. I have moments of happiness, far more than those of worry