I sleep great now.  As long as I take a Tylenol PM.  That’s rather annoying.  Think I could convince Chris to let me sleep in tomorrow morning?

The bloating is all gone.  I can fit in my clothes again.  I’m blessed to have avoided the worst of OHSS.  But then I sit here and think maybe it’s a bad sign.  I’m trying not to read into that.

I don’t have any symptoms – but it’s still early.  The only thing I’ve noticed a change in started yesterday and got worse today.  I’m hungry.  Both days I woke up with my stomach growling, which is unusal for this person who rarely eats breakfast.  So I’ve been doing a bowl of cereal.  But today I did oatmeal and my stomach was growling again by 10:30am.  I couldn’t wait to eat lunch.  Same thing tonight, by 4:30pm my stomach was growling for dinner.

We went to dinner at Rockne’s and I got my usual cuban black bean soup with rice on top, and a terminator sub.  As soon as they were in front of me on the table, neither sounded remotely good.  I got very hot and just wanted some fresh air.  I ate maybe 1/4 of each item and called it quits.  Why wasn’t I wolfing it down if I was so hungry?

We stopped off at Target after dinner to buy lightbulbs, of all things.  Seems like one goes out around here, they ALL go out at the same time.  On the way home Chris wanted to pick up ice cream and the only thing that sounded good to me was Graeters black raspberry chip.  I wanted nothing creamy or rich.  The thought of it makes me feel like crap.

So other than this, I really have no symptoms.

Still so much going through my mind.  Still so many worries and fears.  I just want a healthy pregnancy.  One that doesn’t end up endangering myself or a child.  This is by far my biggest fear.

I heard Chris say again tonight he isn’t sure he can do this again if it doesn’t work.  He says between watching me go through it all (this time was the roughest by far), the money, and the emotions – he’s not sure if he can do it again.  I thought I’d never hear him say that.  But I respect him for saying it – it’s nice to know he’s fed up too, when he rarely lets me in on what he’s thinking.

So beta day – when is that exactly?  If my 2nd IUI was on a Wednesday, that means I should be able to officially test on Tuesday right?  I’m thinking the RE would have me come in for bloodwork on Wednesday.   Whatever happens, if I DO have bloodwork – this time around I will NOT be in the office to get my results.  Never again.